The song “I will follow” is a great declaration for us as a Christian. This song is a beautiful picture of the Christian life. It walks through different circumstances that tend to be realities in our lives;
“When the sea is calm and all is right..”
“When I see the wicked prospering...”
“When the boat is tossed upon the waves...”
“When I feel myself so far from home…”
“When I come to end this race I’ve run…”
What a realistic picture of life. Life is sticky, it’s complex, it’s challenging, and it’s beautiful. We will all have seasons of life where we may feel the overwhelming goodness of God. We also may have moments where He feels absent.
One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 77. In this Psalm the writer depicts in brutal honesty his frustrations and doubt. He asks genuine questions that perhaps sometimes as Christians we are afraid to express -
“Has his unfailing love vanished forever? Has his promise failed for all time?”
Wow! Talk about honesty. That honesty is so necessary in the Christian walk, but the expression of those doubts and feelings isn’t the goal. In Galatians 2:20 Paul says that we are to live by faith and not by sight. Our lives are to be lived for God’s glory and according to his word. Even if the realities of life don’t make sense to us or are painful, we aren’t called to see God by how we interpret our circumstances, but rather we are to live our lives and interpret circumstances based on how God has revealed himself in his word.
This is where the Psalmist ends up. Hear his words -
“Then I thought, ‘To this I will appeal:
the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand.
I will remember the deeds of the Lord;
yes, I will remember your miracles long ago.
I will consider all your works
and meditate on all your mighty deeds.’"
As Christians, we need to acknowledge the times in life that are painful, trying, dry, and doubt-inducing. They exist. That’s ok. In those moments we need to not pretend like they don’t exist, but rather in the midst of them, make an intentional choice to live life based on who God is and how he has revealed himself. We need to remember God’s faithfulness, his promises, his power, his character, his presence, and his provision. When we set our lives on those things we can, by his spirit, chose to live and believe rightly while also being honest with our emotions.
So as we sing “I will follow”, let it be a reflection of your heart. Let yourself be honest about your current circumstances, whatever they may be, but then sing by faith this declaration -
“I believe everything that you say you are.
I believe and I have seen your unchanging heart
in the good things, and in the hardest part
I believe and I will follow you."